Perhaps the reason music mogul Simon Cowell hasn't gotten engaged to Lauren Silverman following baby Eric's birth, is he's just too ashamed to have her as his wife. Cowell recently made news be admitting that he regrets his affair with Silverman and the emotional damage it caused. But Simon is still thrilled to bits with his choice of pop star Sinitta as the boy's godmother; the X Factor producer recently remarked that he loved his former lover in her new role.
Simon Cowell is still pretty jazzed about being a new father, but that doesn't mean he forgives himself for having the baby with Lauren Silverman.
Simon candidly admitted to the Mirror that his depression led him to make mistakes in judgment, in regards to his relationship to Lauren, which he still regrets to this day:
"Did a doctor say I was depressed? Yeah. I mean I knew it myself.
"You are always looking for the next high from the show and then actually if you haven't got anyone to share it with per se, or if you haven't got a family around you, you can go a bit nuts."
"You can start to live a slightly abnormal life and there is no question of doubt I was heading down that path. Too many late-night phone calls.
"I regret that part."
That being said; Cowell doesn't regret what the relationship has blossomed into, or the birth of baby Eric:
"It is not something I am proud of or wanted to happen in terms of hurting anyone.
"It just happened.
"But then of course you have a baby and you look at the baby and you kind of go 'this is what happened from it'.
"The great thing about Lauren is she loves what I do, so she sits in if I am watching Britain's Got Talent for example, and she has got a good opinion. And I seem to have got my mojo back again."
Everything is seemingly looking up in Cowell's life; he is even getting along with his ex, Sinitta since naming her as sole godparent, for now, of his first-born.
Simon told the Mirror that the pop star is just as adept at being a godmother as she is a singer:
"[Sinitta] is great. She's bought loads of presents round. She's been great, she loves kids."
Well...two out of three ain't bad.
